Live Long and Prosper

 

Beautiful words; written by a beautiful man

Rest in Peace, Leonard...

May the angels sing your songs

and

May we all learn to

Live Long And Prosper

You are missed...

 

 



The Eye Of The Storm

Please let this be true; because it isn't "calm" in

the eye of the storm...everything is whirling

around; hitting me, battering me;

the eye of the storm is horrible.

May God bless me and make sure that I'm

NOT

the same person who got caught in this storm.

May this  pass, as all things must....





The same Hell

 

These words speak volumes t0 me....

Even though I know that I have defeated some of my

devils

I also am not naïve enough to think they are all gone...

No; those that are left are just waiting.....waiting

waiting......



Acceptance....

 

It is important to acknowledge and accept your past;

but you can never leave it behind you...it happened and that

can't be changed~~ever.   But, what I can change is the way I now

react to my horrifiying past .  No, it is not a "learning"

lesson...it was a literal living hell while it was

happening.  But my soul must remember that many years

have past now...it is over now; my abusers are gone now..

So, I am learning to give myself permission to accept

what happened to me; but not accept the pain anymore.

I choose "Happiness"

Dreams and Realities

 

 

I can't say that I have been afraid to dream; little dreams

big dreams; seemingly impossible dreams;

yet I have Dreamed and dreamed big...

But what I have been afraid of is letting others "in" on my dreams;

So often, when I have; my dreams have been shoot down;

ridiculed, and told how ridiculous I am...

 

But as I have grown  older, and I hope wiser, I have come

to know that those fragile "movies in my mind"; my

dreams can become miracles..



Don't Wait

 

 

As each year of my life increases in number;

I am really trying to keep this

burned in my

memory;

 

After all; I don't really know how much more time

God

is granting me on this earth; and I realize I've

waited WAY TOO long to

live....



The Wave....

 

Never, Never forget that the simplest kindness from a stranger,

from you;

could save someone's life....

 

A simple wave to a stranger....





You just try and judge me....

 

 

 

Something I am realizing more and more as each year of my life

passes by.

Too many years were wasted foolishly; worrying about what

other people would think of the way I look, the way I walk,

my political views, my passion for peace; my love for

The Beatles...

But, with age comes wisdom; and now, at 62; anyone who feels

they have to judge me, "the never grown up hippie"; can just

take a long walk off a short pier.

I am ME, and THAT is exactly the way I like it.



The Face of True Frienship

 

 

This is the face of a true friend; a friend who will drop everything

when someone calls him for help;

A friend who defines the word "friendship", who

truly knows what that word means.

 

I am so proud to be his friend, and so humbled that he has included

me in his circle of friends.

 

Much Love to You....

1. 

Waiting, Waiting, but no more....time to put up or shut up

 

 

A mantra, I guess; or maybe just lessons being

learned

 

Lessons of Life I don't really want to learn....

 

 

 

I am really learning this lesson the very

hard way.....experience sure

sucks...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



I Miss You Still.....

 

I have done this more than anyone can ever know.

 

I hold the picture in my hand; close my eyes;

and I can almost smell the sweetness; feel the softness;

hear the gentle breathing...

Then I open my eyes,

and the fantasy has vanished like a ghost

 





All You Need is Love

 

 

 

 

Oh; I think we all know this one much too well.

 

Why are people so quick to believe the nasty gossip spoken about you;

than any truth that you speck about yourself?

Why do people relish in the wickedness and not the

kindness about another?

 

Why is it so hard for people to accept a beautiful, courageous

act of selflessness done to or for them;

but find it so easy to accept the back stabbing and viper whispers?

 

We are indeed a strange species...the only ones who

hurt each other like we do; just because we cannot

find it in our hearts to love

ourselves...

 

LOVE IS THE ANSWER



Done being confused, used and abused....

 

 

I WILL believe this one day very soon.

Then, anyone who has used me, abused me, taken me for

granted will see themselves reflected back in the mirrors

of my eyes.

They will see that didn't break me; didn't destroy my

self-esteem with their selfish wants and "needs"

I AM ME, CHERYL; a woman to be respected

and WORTHY of love, not just lust...

 

Read it, believe it; and know that

I survived your "excuses", your "sweet talk"

I survive all of you....

 



Foolish Fantasy

This is exactly what I need right now.  Sure the kitten is just a



fantasy; but sometimes that is all I have to hold on to.

I wish it were real; I wish fantasies became realities;

But, that is just dreaming; and a dream is a wish your

heart makes; sometimes foolishly.

Just call me a "Hopeless Romantic"

This does seem to be true; for me

 

 

 

I am finding this out to be so very true.  Love is a word that is so very over used;

has so many meanings; Love is different things, a different emotion a different feeling

for everyone.  All types of Love is sweet, is beautiful; but it is that special love between

a man and a woman; a love that binds their souls for life, a passion that never dies;

just "adjusts" over time; that most of us want the most.

 

I had it once; and it was so beautiful it took my breathe away; it took my heart away...

but it didn't last, no fault to blame; it just couldn't last in the direction it took.

I thought I had found it again; but, after all these years; I've become wise enough

to know that I am not "in love" with the man who is my husband...I love him; but

not in the way marriage should love.

He rescued me from a horrible situation; he gave me a home, he raised my

daughter like she was his own; he helped give US a beautiful daughter; and he

trusted me to raise his three girls.

But "in love" was not there; just "grateful love"....and it makes me sad...

for  him and for me