Again, I am in a situation I should have known better then to trust. The difference between a few years ago and now; is that I refused to participate in "the joke"; and asked a friend how to handle telling the "jokster" NO, I'm not doing it.
Well, that's what I told him.....NO....and the reprecussions from that are crumbling my world down around me; like a stale bag of cookies. I am damned if I do and damned if I don't........I don't ever come out even or unscatched.
I never knew the darkness or the viciousness of the "jokster" until a couple of days ago.....never did I think I would ever hear him say the words "You stupid, fucking idiot" to me......or that if I thought I could match wits with him, he would "kick my ass from here to Milwaukee". The rage from him was terrifying and I am grateful it was only over the phone. I would never want to be standing in front of him for a "one sided" screaming fest like I received......I would be afraid it would make a turn for the physical rage.......I've been there, had that done to me in my first marriage......and never want it to happen again. NO MAN will ever lay a hand on me again.
What saddens me the most is the hurt inflicted on the other friend; the one I asked for advice. It seems that when evil wants in my door; it will find it's way; even using others to do so.
But, my faith in God is strong; and I know He has this in His Hands now and is taking care of the battle damage. Many lessons I have learned from this; and they are written in my book of my life in permanent ink.....never to fade or be erased.......always there to remind me what paths to avoid.
The sun will shine again; it will take time; but it will shine again.......
