Trying to Be Strong...

I have been trying very hard to implement this "mantra" into my life; but I have to admit it certainly isn't easy.

 

Everyone seems to have an "opinion" of how I should be, what I should say, how I should act...and heaven forbid if I ever say "NO" to something.  But, I am beginning on this path, this journey of self exploration with "baby steps"; but they are moving me forward in my quest; not backward.  Too many times I have just given up; lost my will; lost the strength; but now this time...this time....I SHALL SUCCEED.

 

 

 



Alone in a Crowed Room

I have felt this feeling so often;

I'm in the middle of a crowded room, but no one sees

me

no one hears me; no one even is aware that

I'm here.

I scream; "Please, someone see  me, hear me....

Look, I'm here; I'm not invisible!!!

Wait; but maybe I am to them; to others; to my

husband

I sit all evening in the same room with him;

try to talk to him; but I get "shushed"

because he's watching TV;

then I look over at him;

and he is asleep.

The ultimate "alone".

 

 

The whispers............

How well I know this feeling...

Always having to be there for everyone else;

People, Family pulling me this way and that way;

Or, not talking at all; silence.

I am trying to stop listening to the world's voice everyday;

and start listening to MY heart; as brushed as it is;

as broken it has been; but as happy as it has been, too.

 

So, here's to the lessons of my heart and may I continue

to listen closely; because the heart never screams, it always

whispers...

 



It Arrives!!!

Well, my long awaited new computer arrives tonight.  My old HP  Vista  just  finally gave up the ghost.

I dropped off my old modem on Friday; to have the data transferred over to the new one; but the hard drive was so corrupt on the old computer;

 that what should have been a 24 hr. job has turned into a 3 day job.  Goes to show 'ya what a fire will do to the insides of a computer; even after a "clean out" and "new hard drive".

But, the story has a happy ending, and my new computer comes  home tonight.  I'm sure I will have some frustrating days ahead of me as I learn to operate Windows 8.1.....but I will do it and conquer the beast!

Wish me luck, send me good karma........and I will be talking to you all soon from my new desktop!



Carrie Underwood - Something in The Water [Lyrics Video] 2014

A Picture Speaks a Thousand Words

I think this picture says it all....Marilyn was one of the most intelligent
women I have ever read about.

No dumb blonde.....just a beautiful, big hearted, kind woman who knew more than she ever let on.



The Rainbow Bridge

My very good friend lost her "middle child" this past Saturday.  Dex was 14 years old and a big boy; full of love and kisses.  My heart aches for her and her family.

I've been through this with several of my kitties; but none as painful as the loss of my Kiyoko and MacLennon.......lost is a fire at my condo.  But I am comforted by this poem and I believe that we will be reunited with our lost "children" when we cross over.

Much love to you, my friend......this is for Dex, Kiyoko and MacLennon...