Taken 'Way Your Brain

 

 

The well is deep

it's so dark inside

Sliding down ain't no carnival ride

no laughing, just screaming

as the final plunge arrives

 

Hit the bottom, grind the gears,

Just can't stop the speeding fears

from closing in,

grabbing the soul-

they've got the control, they've got the hold-

finally strangling their prey's

crashing soul

 

No time to scream, girl;

They've taken away your voice

No time to cry copious tears, girl;

They've taken them away;

Replaced them with forced muteness;

but not by your choice.



It's just another Christmas

 



 

It's another Christmas Eve; so many have passed through my life now.  I'm watching the "Hallmark Channel" and all their lovely, happily ever after movies.......in my living room; by myself.

 

I've spent many years alone now during the holidays, even though my husband is here; he has been sleeping for hours now.  There are no lights outside, making things bright on my condo; their are no presents under the tree this year, there is no mistletoe, no kisses,  there is no passion to spark my eyes..........just a beautiful tree; given to me by a wonderful Christmas angel.

 

I miss the Christmas's when I was in love, held hands, stole kisses, went to midnight mass with that "someone special",  woke up next to him; and saw love reflected in  his eyes, a look that made me melt.  I miss being hugged so tight my ribs hurt and not wanting it to stop.

 

But that stopped many, many holidays ago.....I'm 63 now; and haven't had that for over 25 years.  Like John Lennon said "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans"........and my life changed into "lonely".

 

I'm so lonely, so very lonely..............

 



Peace

 

 



 

 

She's The Girl



Strength, Serenity and Tranquility

 

 

 



~ MAY YOU ALWAYS FIND WHAT YOU NEED ~
May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand. May the pain you have known and the conflict you have experienced give you the strength to walk through life facing each new situation with courage and optimism. Always know that there are those whose love and understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone. May you discover enough goodness in others to believe in a world of peace. May a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours every day of your life, and may you give these gifts as well as receive them. Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending.

Teach love to those who hate, and let that love embrace you as you go out into the world. May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them. Remember, those whose lives you have touched and whose have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is more important than the form.
May you not become too concerned with material matters, but instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. Find time each day to see beauty and love in the world around you. Realize that each person has limitless abilities, but each of us is different in our own way. What you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future. May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility. Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience. May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself, and not be dependent on another's judgment of your accomplishments. May you always feel loved.
~ Author Unknown

Words I can Never Say.....

 

 

Truth...

   “ I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies. ”

 

How true this is

 

If only I could say those words.....

but I can never



I Thought We Knew Each Other???

 

I have just learned this lesson, very painfully;

losing a friend I admired so much.

I am so very sad; I thought I knew better;

but I obviously don't know how to

read people very well.